Memories.
Our memories consist of the things we’ve learned and experienced. They make us who we are and affect how we act or feel. Without being able to remember the who, what, when and where throughout each day, we would be in a mess! All of our stored memories not only help us to function on a daily basis, they also direct our lives. We make choices based not only on the current circumstances, but also on the memories we have stored.
I went to see my therapist and shared my progress in this PTSD journey that I live with every day. I also told her that I was sad.
Just sad.
When there is a love lost, shattered dreams, pain suffered and our hopes are stalled, the memories all wrapped up in those things give us a legitimate reason to be sad. We need to process these emotions and memories in order to let them go into a place that we don’t have to think of them all the time or re-evaluate the emotions over and over. The memories won’t disappear, but the emotion packed in the memory will cease to control us when we deal with them properly.
So today, I’m dealing with my memories and I’m sad. It is only temporary, but it is part of the process of healing. While I’m sad, sorting through my memories and healing, these words floated into my head…
Light the corners of my mind
Misty watercolor memories
Of the way we were
Scattered pictures
Of the smiles we left behind
Smiles we gave to one another
For the way we were…”
Our memories can make us stronger, but if we let them overtake us by not facing or processing them, they can surely break us. There’s no shame in having to process painful memories and definitely no reason to apologize for being sad. It is a necessity and memories are the things that stand between me and my future happiness. After coming this far, I’m not about to stop now and that’s for sure.
I am here Sherry, I know you think I am not. I have always marveled how the bad memories over time seem to disappear. I find that if we let go, they go. Love is a powerful healer. The more you let in your heart the greater the healing power. It is hard, never easy and you will always at times question yourself. That is the human part of you. Your life is before you, I know that you feel what life? Alyssa is leaving and I am alone. Alyssa will always come back and you have been alone for years and years. The Lord will open a window and the sweet wind of his sweet spirit will bring you great joy. I know this and I know you will succeed. good nite my child
“Love is a powerful healer.” I totally agree.
“I know that you feel what life? Alyssa is leaving and I am alone.” Yeah, you can say that again.
“I know you will succeed.” Thank you, Mom. I hope you are right.
This lemonade is driving me crazy, I am now so thirsty and all I want is that lemonade!!!
It is rather beautiful, isn’t it? LOL
Yeah, memories are one of life’s double-edged swords… it’s a good thing that a double edged sword comes with a haft!
Sadness is double-edged too, for that matter… it can be painful, or nostalgic… May all your sadness only give you nostalgia for things that were, or might have been…
That is very beautifully written. Thank you.
Memories? I have a few. 🙂
Sorry you are experiencing all this sadness, Redhead Riter. 🙁
I hope tomorrow will be a better day for you.
Is it tomorrow yet? 🙂
LOL You’re so funny!
It was a better day! 😀
Thank you, Joan. It’s just life right now.
Sing it girl! LOL