Simple Soliloquy

I do not have a problem talking to myself and have always found it to be relaxing and therapeutic. As a child, my dialogue was like having a friend and it often warded off loneliness. The monologue of unspoken reflections fill my mind all day long. We all have that conversation going on within our minds and the self-talk can actually help us resolve problems. So a simple soliloquy is a good thing!

Today I will share a few of my rambling thoughts…

• I am really excited about going to the apple festival this weekend with my daughter. It will be a beautiful drive through the autumn leaves. I need to make sure my camera is charged.
• I definitely have to buy some fresh apple butter. I’ve never made apple butter before and would love a good recipe from an old pro. I wonder if anyone would be offended if I posted this on Twitter or Facebook: “Will someone who is over the age of 60 who has been making apple butter since they were young, give me their recipe?” I just want a very old recipe like my great grandmother used to can!
• 2012 is just around the corner and I will be glad to put the last two years behind me. Wow. Two years. I think I have aged twenty years in the past two years. I wonder if I look older because of all the trauma and stress?
• I am definitely too hard on myself. I made it through all the hardships of the last two years. I really should be proud. For some reason, being proud of myself is hard to do. I wonder if it is hard for everyone else too.
• Postponing moving until next year was definitely the best choice. I feel a load off my shoulders even if my daughter is ticked off.
• I shouldn’t have posted so many carrot facts on Twitter today because now I am craving a carrot cake. I still can’t believe that, “Hippocrates recommended women eat carrot seeds to prevent pregnancy.” If only it were that easy!
• Bella is such an adorable dog. We are going to have a lovely nap laying on the couch in the sunshine on Saturday. I can’t hardly wait!
• I hope the person that is moving my blog will figure out how to move 2009 so that I can enjoy the design I worked on for a year. I still can’t believe I learned how to do everything about the design from scratch while having all my PTSD flashbacks. I wonder if that is a Guinness World Record?!
• Dang! I need to clean the turtle tank again. To be totally honest, I hate cleaning that big tank.
• Alyssa cleaned her room tonight and it looks so nice. She almost ate a whole loaf of cinnamon raisin bread in the process. Oh to be young, petite and skinny!
• I haven’t watched television this whole week and when I popped it on tonight, George Clooney was on the Late Show With David Letterman. Glorious eye candy right before bedtime. I can only think of one thing better…a little black stretched back on all the white.
• I wonder if I will have time to bake a carrot cake on Saturday?
• My clock-radio has two alarms and the volume is really loud. I still have to set two other alarms in order to wake up in the morning. Why do I sleep so soundly?
• Being the naked extra in the CSI morgue would not be a fun job for me.
• I read the King James version of the Bible cover to cover including all the “begats” when I was a teenager. I really read the “begats” because I wanted to know that I had read every word of the whole book.
• Why do people have to be mean and selfish?
• Years ago the news would not have put a picture or video of a dead Gaddafi on television. Does everyone else want to see his dead body?
• I bet if I made a carrot cake, my mother and daughter would love a piece too.
• This morning it was brisk outside and the promise of winter hung in the air. I better dress in warm clothes for the apple festival because it is up in the mountains which will surely have even colder temperatures. Where is my red and black flannel shirt?
• After I get everything packed and moved next year, I will dedicate myself to writing my books. I have three planned and each is about a totally different topic. I’m actually excited about it. I don’t think I will tell anyone about them until I finish the first one.
• I love the song Unchained Melody by the Righteous Brothers – “Oh, my love, my darling, I’ve hungered, hungered for your touch, a long lonely time.”
• I hope when I get to the end of my life, I can look back and be proud of myself.
• Even though I took a three hour nap when I got home from work, I am still very tired.
• I really wish I had a piece of carrot cake smothered with cream cheese frosting.